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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

To Him


Now it's seriously not the time to tell you anything. Moreover I'm really too afraid to tell you. I do not dare to take the risk as the friendship between us is too precious to me. I don't know how you will react neither do I know if you will reject and avoid me.


I got my O levels to handle right now, but at the same time, I'm feeling all messed up whenever I think about you. The fear I have in me, not excluding how worried I am of the outcome. WORST! The temptation to tell you whenever I see you. I'm always trying very hard to be tactful with my actions and words, but the fact is that it is not easy to do so. I don't want you to know because I don't ever want to be distant from you. I know how terrible I'm going to feel if it happens. The feeling is something that I'll never want to have in me. Cause I've got that kind of feeling too many times before.


I don't know what God's will is. I don't know if you'll ever find out about the feelings I have for you. I don't want to be distant from you cause I need you so. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, but I don't know what God's will is for me and you. I keep praying to God above for patience as I know naught is better than Thy gift.


Every time I get to see you, I just feel so contented and happy, but I just don't show it whenever you are around. I will be happier if you will smile at me sweetly when I say 'I Love You', without having to worry that you will avoid, reject, being distant or walk away. I just love you so but how I wish you know that I'm saying all these to you.


I don't think of the past. The only thing that matters is the everlasting present. And the future is not in the hands of fate, but in ours.


I Love You!

*Joan* was here at 12:21:00 AM