Tuesday, May 29, 2007

I Offer My Life - Hillsong

All that I am,
All that I have,
I lay them down before You, oh Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaim
The joy and the pain, I’m making them Yours.

Lord, I offer my life to You,
Everything I’ve been through, use it for Your glory.
Lord, I offer my days to You,
Lifting my praise to You, as a pleasing sacrifice
Lord, I offer You my life.

Things in the past, things yet unseen,
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true.
All of my hopes, all of my plans,
My heart and my hands are lifted to You.
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Insanely Fun Times
Sis stayed over at my place last night, and we cooked Western for our lunch and dinner today. *Laughs*
All the fun times, I wonder how long it'll last.

Joyous Occasion
YAY! Ika's coming back this Friday.. YAYEEE!! I can't wait.. Oh man! Hahaha.. =D

Skating :)
This coming Saturday is the Interschool Competition. I'm really looking forward to it. :))
YES! I can finally do proper backspins! *3 Cheers for myself*

I received a call from Condrey last night; he mentioning that Diana is looking for me. They're asking me to be the Mcee for this year's Interschool just like last year. So cool... But it's kinda leveling up my ego in becoming a Mcee for this kind of subjective events. I feel so honoured~ *Laughs*
Alright alright. I'll stop here. Hahahhaaaa. :)))

Love
The one I long for has gone and past, the new one has yet to come and stay. I wonder who it'll be but I'm leaving it into God's hands. For He'll take care of this for me; his plans have been made and I just need to abide them. Nothing will definitely go wrong no matter how tough every obstacles may seem to me.
"By His grace, we can do all things."

P.S I Love You!
Joanne Magdalene :))

*Joan* was here at 10:26:00 PM

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Glenn Medieros
Nothing's Gonna Change my Love for You
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If I had to live my life without you near me
the days would all be empty
the nights would seem so long
with you I see forever oh so clearly
I tried to be in love before
but it never felt this strong
our dreams are young and we both know
they'll take us where we want to go
hold me now touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
you ought to know by now how much I love you
one thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you ought to know by know how much I love you
the world may change my whole life too
but nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
our love will lead the way for us
like the guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
you don't need to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
so come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
hold me now touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
you ought to know by now how much I love you
one thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
nothing's gonna change my love for you
you ought to know by know how much I love you
the world may change my whole life too
but nothing's gonna change my love for you

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God lead me; tell me what to do next, because I do not want to take the wrong move that would cause misunderstandings. Help me Lord.

*Joan* was here at 11:52:00 PM

Thursday, May 24, 2007

I'm not looking for someone to talk to
I've got my friend, I'm more than O.K.
I've got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams but it's not all they say
Still I believe (I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world

I've often wondered if love's an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can't criticize it
I have no hesitation
My imagination just stole me away
(Still...) Still I believe
(I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world

Love's for a lifetime not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
Yeah I'm only human
And nights grow colder
With no-one to love me that way
Yeah I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) And i won't wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world
(Don't wanna wake up alone anymore...)

[fade out]

God will give when the time is right. Just have to be patient. :)) Man.. Heck with it Joanne..

*Joan* was here at 11:48:00 PM

Found something interesting while in the midst of doing my research for RJ.
HAHA! You are going to laugh...

YES YES! Laugh till you got abs. :D =D

[A Child and A Father]
Child: Want other one spoon, Daddy.
Father: You mean, you want the other spoon.
Child: Yes, I want other one spoon, please, Daddy.
Father: Can you say "the other spoon"?
Child: Other... one... spoon.
Father: Say "other".
Child: Other.
Father: "Spoon."
Child: Spoon.
Father: "Other... spoon."
Child: Other... spoon. Now give me other one spoon.

[An Adult and A Child]
Another anecdote: my wife liked to tease a young boy who was having trouble understanding the reciprocal nature of personal pronouns:

Adult: Is this your ball?
Child (trying to say it's his): Yes, it's your ball!
Adult: So, it's my ball?
Child: No! (cries)

HAHAHAA!! ...

Damn it man! I got problem doing today's RJ. I don't know what kind of situation to give. Bloody Hell! And I can't bloody hell find anything from the resources. Damn it!
AaaaAHH!! Cries~~

*Joan* was here at 6:45:00 PM

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Recently, you've not been talking.
What happened? Why?
Is there something that caused you to feel unhappy?
I heard that recently you've been very lonely.
A little confused and panicky.
But I can never be by your side.

The things that you want, I can't give it all to you.
What I can give is not what you want.
We are not compatible and we do not want to admit defeat.
Many a times, we hugged each other and we almost cried.

You tried to explain that all these are just the beginning.
But I feel that everything has ended long time ago.
I don't feel like doing it again; and I don't want to feel pain anymore.
There will be a better route of romance down the road.

And the next time we will be more fortunate..

*Joan* was here at 12:27:00 PM

Sunday, May 20, 2007

'Loveliest Moments'

Parish Youth Camp was fun fun and FUN! Although I didn't join in the playing of activities, I still enjoyed myself. Especially Praise & Worship sessions and jamming with my Psalm 91 dudes. It's way cool.. Plus the campfire! I met this cute little 2 year old boy. He gave me 3 hugs and a kiss on my cheek. I swear! He's totally CUTE. My handsome boy man. Love him! Haha..

P.S: It's okay Germaine! Hahaha. I know he gave you more than me. Hahaha..
AND YAAaaa.. Hello People! I AM NOT A PEDOPHILE. :)

Ha! I had an eye-candy when I was there. I shall (SSSSHHHH). Now I have 2 eye-candies. Hahahahaaa.. Anyhoo.. Yay it was totally cool. Totally~~ Nyahahahaaa!
[They're just eye-candies.. Nothing more!] :D

Oh ya! I feel like joining INNOTREK! I get to do camps like this one. It's waayy cool..
Abseiling, flying fox, river crossing, archery, catapult & rock climbing; etc etc!! It's so fun! Kayaking/Canoeing as well man. Too bad we didn't get to kayak/canoe during the camp because there isn't enough time. Moreover it is the 'Serimbun Scouts Camp' campsite, not the 'MOE Adventure Camp' campsite.

If it is the MOE Campsite, probably there will be higher chances of getting to kayak/canoe. Ah well.. And ya I was saying: I WANT TO JOIN INNOTREK!
Should I join FIT or INNOTREK? Aye.. Actually it doesn't matter as long as I get to be a trainer at such camps. It's totally cool.. I swear! Nyahahahaaa...

P.S: I'd probably get to see my eye-candy there too if I join. Hahahha.. Just kidding! LOL :)))

A Prayer
Dear Heavenly Father, please help me to be patient and adopt strong perseverance. Help me to learn more about You because I want to know You much more than what I do now.
And Lord, always remind all of us that, by Your loving grace, we can do all things. We know that You are always beside us, guiding us and leading us.
But... Sometimes we just tend to forget or be ignorant about You being there for us, because we are all so in tuned to our daily lives.
We are always so stressed, frustrated, delighted/happy or upset at whatever situation we are in, that we always tend to forget that you are always right beside us.
So Lord, I pray that You will constantly help to remind us about Your presence that is always everywhere around us.
I love You Lord. You know that. You can see through me, I can't lie under Your eyes. Because You made me, Lord. You know me best. Not anyone else, but You alone Lord.

I pray that there'll be peace in the world. And that the poor and rejected will be touched by Your loving grace Lord. May they be provided with the most basic human needs in their lives, so that they may receive happiness in Thy name.
I also pray for those that are always constantly trying to pull themselves further and further away from You. And that You may one day touch and fill their hearts, with full of Your peace and love.

Lord, I have so much things to pray for but it is too long to be typed in here.
But Lord, You do know all my needs and wants, so I'll just lift them all up into Your hands of tender care and guidance. I really love you Lord, I really really do.
AMEN. :)

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I want to run into someone's warm embrace, where I can feel secure; to love and be loved; and to be able to walk hand in hand down this whole tranquil beauty of God-centered life. Kudos~
I Love You! AMEN.

*Joan* was here at 10:06:00 PM

Monday, May 14, 2007

Ultimate hay-wireness

I want to stay away from you. I want to stay away from that dark lonely place where sadness just fills in.
I can't be near you because it hurts whenever I see the scenario that saddens me.
But..
You just mean so much to me that I can't bear to do so. Why must this happen? The closest and I've got to stay away; but I chose not to.
ALL THE LIES LIES LIES!

Love? I think I lost it all within me.
Hope? Maybe there still is inside me.
But.. I've given up on the most treasured because there is nothing left for me to hold on to. It is completely gone.

It's going to be a long time.
You mean the world.
Like there's nothing else.
You flew away like a butterfly.
So beautifully yet so cunningly.
It hurts.

It's all okay. :)

*Joan* was here at 10:46:00 PM

Sometimes I just wonder why do things change so drastically.
I miss those times where I could just do things freely without any restrictions. Right now there is just a close door between, and it hurts me so deeply.

You are like a million needles in my heart and mind; and I am just slowly taking them out one by one.
Yea you know how that feels. I guess. Or you don't?
I simply don't care though.

The special has gone away.
Take my heart before leaving.
That unsightful scene between the both,
Whenever I am around.
It hurts so much that I do not feel I exist.
Just go.
Just go.
All's alright, all's okay.
I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.
Oh yeah...

joanne

*Joan* was here at 6:22:00 PM

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

It's been a long time since I posted an entry. Now I'M BACK! ;)

School life has been pretty much interesting. I Love It. :)
My class is going to be dispersed once 2nd semester dawns upon us. Gosh.. This is so heart-breaking.

Anyway I'm having class now. So adios.. Will be BACK! :)))

*Joan* was here at 11:00:00 AM

Roses`

A Cup Of Wine`

Sweet Champagne`

REMINISE`