Wednesday, March 28, 2007

The song 'Stand by me', sang by Timo and Pumba is really hilarious. Haha.

Well, I've been recapping on the various incidents that happened for the past weeks. And seriously, there were numerous ups and downs. It has come to a point where I'm feeling totally zonked. I really need the strength to continue this journey, or else I'll collapse.

Right now, the heaviest burden that I've been carrying with me has been taken away. I'm on clouds nine now. I guess I've never felt this way before. Perhaps it's time for me to take on this high carefree spirit for the short time being. :))

I was once told only in dreams
Do dreams come true.
But I'm to tell, here and now,
Your dreams are up to you.
Like "The Rose",
we may pass through life
"Not Understood".
And maybe we won't
make all the friends we should.
But always treasure what you have
and in the mirror what you see,
Then strive to get all you can
and be all that you may be.
On the rocky roads of life,
you must be strong to fall apart.
But, I tell you from my soul to keep
Faith, Hope, and Heart.

by Nicci Pagan

*Joan* was here at 9:38:00 AM

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Clear skies. :))

I'm finally done with the enrolment. Yay!
I've been walking around the school these two days and I must say that the architectural design of the school is totally beyond my imagination and description. Totally Perfect!

And one thing I must say, I'm quite proud of myself. :D

During enrolment today, I met Eliz & Renee there. Coincidence! :) I saw Ckris there again too. Haha.

This year's Lent, I've managed to do something which I've never done before. That is to attend weekday mass everyday. Although I miss a few weekday masses since the start of Lent until to date, I'm still very satisfied with the effort that I've put in to try to make it everyday. :))

My resolutions for this year.
- Not to attend weekday mass only during Lent but continue to do so.
- To be more independent.
- To study hard.
- To put aside unimportant life decisions for the time being.
- Be more discipline to take the initiative to do certain things without being told.

Delighted. :)

*Joan* was here at 11:45:00 AM

Saturday, March 24, 2007

The confirmation camp for the Sec 4s and pastoral attachment for the Sec 3s are this weekend. Busy. Sunday's Psalm 91 session is going to be boring without Andrea, Debbie and Dom, but I don't have to worry as the rest will definitely be around to make my day. Deb says she'll try to make it. :D

One joyous occasion for this very moment is... Vinna's finally back from Indonesia! Tonight, she's staying in the hotel with her aunt. I'll be able to see her tomorrow. Yay! :D

On a personal note, I'm astounded by the countless number of friends I have who will be studying in RP. Oh Joy! And the enrolment period started yesterday and it sure is going to be a hectic one. So many various forms to fill up; going to the bank and having to make a few trips down to RP soon for administrative procedures. Fun.

And on a final note, Oliver Newton John will be coming down to S'pore soon for a 1 day concert. Man, I really want to go. I wonder if I can. :|
Not having to forget, orientation week and first day of school is approaching soon. How time flies. I hope t's going to be a good year ahead.

Now I think it's time for me to go to bed. Night. :)

*Joan* was here at 12:41:00 AM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

"Beauty of Life, Appreciate"

Praise & Worship - 'Prince of Peace'
You are holy (You are holy)
You are mighty (You are mighty)
You are worthy (You are worthy)
Worthy of praise (Worthy of praise)

I will follow (I will follow)
I will listen (I will listen)
I will love You (I will love you)
All of my days (All of my days)

I will sing to (You're the Lord of Lords)
And worship (You're the King of kings)
The King who (You are mighty God)
Is worthy (Lord of everything)
I will love and (You're counselor)
Adore Him (You're the great I am)
And I will bow down (You're the Prince of Peace)
before Him (Who is the lamb)
I will sing to (You're the living God)
And worship (You're my saving grace)
The King who (You will reign forever)
Is worthy (You are ancient of days)
I will love and (You are alpha, omega)
Adore Him (Beginning and end)
And I will bow down (You're my Savior, Messiah)
Before Him (Redeemer and friend)
You're my Prince of Peace
And I will live my life for You
(Repeat above 2x)

GREAT SONG!!! Weee~ Enjoy the lyrics. :D

Hey Dan the dumb dumb.. Glad you've read the paragraph of the previous previous post! Heee!~ Now you know what to do yea. XD I know you read it already even if you didn't tag me and I know you don't need it anymore so I've deleted it like a few days ago. Muahahaha.. Next time don't ask me to write those kind of things. Hahaha. All because of you!!! ROARS~~ I want to message it through phone, you say it's a waste of money. Ok fine. Then I want to email it to you, you say it's troublesome. Make me type it in my blog. A few of my friends came asking me, thought something happen to me.
Blah! You AH.. Troublesome BOY! :P

Weekdays are boring, got to work and all. Sigh..
Turning off the lights. ;D

*Joan* was here at 12:38:00 AM

Monday, March 19, 2007

"the world revolves around Love"

St. Patrick's Day was Fun. Dancing and drinking with the great company of friends at the piazza was just excellently lovely. XD

Vinna's gone back to Indo since last Thursday. She'll be coming back this Friday. Can't wait for her to come back. :)) Appeal was unsuccessful. So I'll be staying on in S&L Mngmnt. :D

Hillsong - 'Tell the world that'
Don’t want to stand here and shout Your praise
And walk away and forget Your Name
I’ll stand for you if it’s all I do
Cause there is none that compare to You

Cause all I want in this lifetime is You
And all i want in this whole world is you

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again

No longer I but Christ in me
Cause it’s the truth that set me free
How could this world be a better place?
But by thy mercy and by thy grace

C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again

C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
Tell the world that
Tell the world that
C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
Tell the world that
Tell the world that
About You

I'm wandering around aimlessly,
Not knowing where my heart is leading me to.
Surrendering into God's hands is all I know.
If I don't, I'll lose control.
Holding on to God's hands, letting Him lead me.

Take me, Mold me, Use me, Fill me.
I give my life to the Potter's hands.
Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me.
I give my life to the Potter's hands.

Living in illusions is the easiest thing to do. 1/4
Facing reality is the hardest. 3/4
:D

*Joan* was here at 5:13:00 PM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

"it's just you"

You don't know me well.

St. Patrick's Day!!
The color code for today is green. I wonder why. I'm going to check it out! Haha. There's a party at the piazza tonight. I bet it's going to be fun! Especially the company of friends that's going to be there. Cool. :D

There's nothing I want to ask from you as I'm already blessed with what was given.
The future is unknown. Only God knows. :))

*Joan* was here at 1:38:00 PM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Diana Degarmo - 'Emotional'

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy,
but sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional
You say I'm just impossible
Totally unpredictable
I'm just a girl get use to it No big deal
You can't change me why would you try?
I'm no angel but I can make you smile
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am
Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but,
sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional
Don't give upI won't hurt you
Oh, sometimes I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am
That's when I need you

Nice song! :)) Ah! It's going to rain. Sigh.. I still got to go to church soon. God please don't let it rain now. Ahh!

*Joan* was here at 4:12:00 PM

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

"crumpled"

I need not work today and so I was accompanying Vinna the whole day. I brought her to church and brought her around. Nothing much today actually. Ah well..
So it's the second day of the one week march holiday; and I got to work the next few days. It all seems so boring all of a sudden. I seriously need to get a lfe soon. I can't take this no more. *Screams*~ :/

Everything turns dark all of a sudden.
There's nothing that I want so much for me to look forward to.
Losing interest in the most important part of me; the 'Heart'.
It all seems so far right now.
Deep in my heart, I'm still sincere regardless of anything.
The x-factor is missing somehow.
And I just can't figure it out.
I just want to look back and stop.

Guns N Roses - 'Estranged'
When you`re talkin to yourself and nobody`s home
You can fool yourself you,came in this world alone(alone)
So nobody ever told you baby how it was gonna be
so what`ll happen to you baby
guess we`ll have to wait and see
ONE TWO
Old at heart but I`m only 28
and I`m much too young to let love break my heart
Young at heart but it`s getting much too late
to find ourselves so far apart
I don`t know how you`re s`posed to find me lately
and what more could you ask from me
how could you say that I never needed you
when you took everything
said you took everything from me
Young at heart and it gets so hard to wait
when no one I know can seem to help me now
Old at heart but I mustn`t hesitate
if I`m to find my own way out
Still talking to myself and nobody`s home (alone)
So nobody ever told us baby how it was gonna be
so what`ll happen to us baby
guess we`ll have to wait and see
When I find out all the reasons
maybe I`ll find another way, find another day
with all the changing seasons of my life
maybe I`ll get it right next time
And that you`ve been broken down
got your head up of the clouds
you`re back down on the ground
and you don`t talk so loud and you don`t walk so proud
any more, and what for
Well I jumped into the river
too many times to make it home
I`m out there on my own and drifting all alone
if it doesn`t show give it time
to read between the lines
`Cause I see the storm`s getting closer
and the waves they get so high
seems everything we`ve ever known`s here
why must it drift away and die
I`ll never find anyone to replace you
guess I`ll have to make it through this time
all this time, without you
I knew the storm was getting closer
and all my friends said I was high
but everything we`ve ever known`s here
I never wanted it to die...

All I ever wanted was just that something special.

*Joan* was here at 1:03:00 AM

Monday, March 12, 2007

"Can't Forget"

Happy and not so happy. Ok what am I talking about? I've no idea too. I find the talk by Fr JP today was rather interesting. Secular society? Secular state?? The topic on Mass Comm and law too. Hmm.. Interesting. :))

Disney - 'Beauty and the Beast'
Mrs. Potts:
Tale as old as time
True as it can be
Barely even friends
Then somebody bends
Unexpectedly.

Just a little change
Small to say the least
Both a little scared
Neither one prepared
Beauty and the Beast.

Ever just the same
Ever a surprise
Ever as before
Ever just as sure
As the sun will rise.

Tale as old as time
Tune as old as song
Bittersweet and strange
Finding you can change
Learning you were wrong.

Certain as the sun
Rising in the east
Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Beauty and the Beast.

Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Beauty and the Beast.

Off to the cupboard with you now, Chip.
It's past your bedtime. Good night, love.

Missing you so badly.
I hate seeing you but it makes me happy.
It also makes me close to tears.
Just when will the skies be cleared?
Instead of seeing cloudy gray skies all the time.
It's just so hard.
I'm still trying.
Damn I'm good.

Excruciating. :/

*Joan* was here at 11:50:00 PM

"I live for you alone"

Everything that happens in our life, always happens for a reason. God may give you a gift, but He will take it away from you too. Everything that you go through, it's a learning experience. Life has all its ups and downs, but it all drives down to the most incomprehensive word; 'LOVE'.
You may feel so hurt right now, but time will heal all wounds. And God definitely has something better for you, so don't feel sad. Just move on with life.

Today's homily by Fr Joe was really good.
"Compromise your faith and relationships" :)) Hold on to God's hands; by His grace, take on the journey that He wants you to follow.

I remember I once received a message from a close friend of mine. It says:
Love is easy to feel..
So hard to explain;
So easy to get,
So hard to let go.
It's so easy to spell,
So hard to define.
But yet everyone is still taking the risk.
That's what 'Love' is.

Take everything as a learning experience and always know that God will always give you what's best for you. He will always be there to guide you, lead you and walk beside you. Just reach out to Him and allow Him to have His will and His way in you. :D

*Joan* was here at 1:51:00 AM

Saturday, March 10, 2007

"souls of heart"

My Indonesian friend, Vinna, just arrived in Singapore on Wednesday night, and she's staying at my place permanently. Haha. YAY I've got a companion for 4 years. Cool. :D I'm in her room now keeping her company as she settles her adminstrative stuff for enrolment into university. :))

Mass today was great and the station of the cross too. :D Glad to see Deb(my twin), Cassandra and some of the young adults ministry members there. Haha.

Not going for sunset mass tomorrow. Gonna miss seeing Mark, Koh family and the others. :(
Going in to M'sia with mom, dad and vinna to do our hair and at the same time for dinner. :)

Thinking.. And thinking.. And thinking..
Just won't stop.
Joanne you gotta wake up. Stop daydreaming.
Wonder.. Wanders far. Never ends.

Loving you.

*Joan* was here at 2:29:00 AM

Friday, March 09, 2007

"sunnygirl"

So many procedures to go through. Sigh..
At least I get into poly, which means my hardwork has been paid off.
Thank the good Lord. :))

Is it you? I've always been pondering.
The answer has yet to come.
My time? Your time?
No. It's God's time.
Looking from afar. Admiring. Dreaming.
And it just seems as if all has come into place.
My mind wanders far, enjoying the moments there.
It never wants to come back as it all seems real.
Is this what 'dreams' and 'illusions' do?
A second of satisfaction and it all fades away.
Never want to come back, but it's a must.
And all just crumpled and torn apart.
Just how should we go about it?

All will be fine as long as you're around. :))

*Joan* was here at 12:15:00 AM

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

"my man"

Take it or leave it. I did so many things and yet you say I didn't do a lot of things. WTHell! You say I didn't ask you if I'm not sure or whatsoever. Come on man! When I ask, you don't even give me a specific answer. I have to ask 3 or 4 times before you answer me properly. Certain things you didn't inform clearly on what to do, how the hell would I know? How the hell should I know what to ask? Damn it. Attitude problem?? You too for Christ sake.
If that's the case, find someone else whom you think will do better than me.
Only know how to complain. Wtheck. Seriously, take it or leave it.
Sooner or later, I won't be able to take this shit. DAMN IT!

'He ain't heavy, He's my brother'
The road is long with many a winding turn
That leads us to who knows where, who knows when
But I'm strong--strong enough to carry him
He ain't heavy, he's my brother

So on we go--his welfare is my concern
No burden is he to bear--we'll get there
For I know he would not encumber me
He ain't heavy, he's my brother

If I'm laden at all--I'm laden with sadness
That everyone's heart isn't filled with the gladness of love for one another
It's a long, long road from which there is no return
While we're on our way to there
Why not share?

And the load--it doesn't weigh me down at all
He ain't heavy, he's my brother
He ain't heavy, he's my brother
He ain't heavy. he's my brother

I'm posted to RP. YAYness! :))

I'm irritated. Seriously irritated. Argh!~

There's still a light of joy in me. Yet again I may be thinking too much about it. Sigh. So many things going on, I just wish so much that these would stop and be with ... Don't have to worry about anything at all. It's totally impossible anyway. AAHH! Wtheck.

Who is it going to be? Is it you? I really wonder

*Joan* was here at 12:14:00 AM

Monday, March 05, 2007

"sorry"

I'm sorry I didn't call the companies. Sorry dad. I'll do my best.

Thank the good Lord, I managed to go for mass after work today. YAY!
I feel really happy today. Just can't ask for more. :D

Worried. Worried. Worried.
Tomorrow's my big day. Please honeys, pray for me!! :/ I really want to get into my first choice. God help me.

Chicago - 'You're The Inspiration'
You know our love was meant to be
The kind of love that lasts forever
And I need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time

You should know, everywhere I go
Always on my mind, in my heart
In my soul

Chorus:
You're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You're the inspiration
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me sayin'
No one needs you more than I need you

And I know, yes I know that it's plain to see
We're so in love when we're together
And I know that I need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time

You should know, everywhere I go
Always on my mind, in my heart
In my soul

Chorus

When you love somebody
Till the end of time
When you love somebody
Always on my mind
No one needs you more than I

One very nice love song I heard over the radio today. :D

I guess my dad is really mad at me now. Sigh... Joanne you dumb dumb. Next time just do what he asked you to. That is first priority. So so sorry.

Just that bit, so contented.
It seems great.
:)))

*Joan* was here at 9:48:00 PM

Sunday, March 04, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PMFG(B-I-L)

You're like the same age as me. Not really actually. Mine is like end of the year.
So DAMN! I'm younger than you now. Bleah.. Boohoohoo!

Anyway.. Today's the last day of CNY.
Tomorrow marks the beginning of the new week. And guess what?!!
My POSTING RESULTS are coming out this TUESDAY... AAAHHH!!!
Worried, worried, worried. Worried, worried!!
Please please please.. Sexy honeys Pray for me.. :/
Gosh. First was the O level result that kept me in suspense for months. And now!?!?
The posting result is doing the same thing. Wtheck..
Can just faint.

Man! I think I'm already sick, as the flu virus has just attacked me.
AAHH! FLU VIRUS GO AWAY!!!! Irritating... Blah~ Damn it. :(

Anyhoo.. The weekends are as usual FUN! Hahaha.
Today's P&W was GREAT!
Like.. Totally!~ I KNOW RIGHT? [Gosh I'm influenced by my "God-brother"] ;/
Deb(my twin) and I was like jumping together with Rachel, PM, Tim, Josh, Carmen and some others whom I've forgotten their names. Oops.. :P
Nice songs.
Great company.
You just can't ask for more! ;D
On a final note, not to forget giving credits to Aerin and Surath, who took the courage to go forward and lead in today's Psalm 91's light P&W session. You two did well. Cheers* :D

You 2 make the best of both worlds. I'm in a whirled.

God please show and direct me to the path you have will me to follow, as I surrender this life of mine into Your mighty hands. Lord guide me. I know You have carved a path for me to take. All I need now is Your loving grace and guidance to direct me to the path, the path that I desire too. Lord I just love you so much, and you have made my life so much more meaningful. And I know that my prayers and serving you wholeheartedly is never enough. Your unconditional love for your people touches my heart deeply Lord. And we always feel unworthy of your forgiveness and love cause we have always sinned over and over again. But Lord, thank you for everything you've given me. A complete family and many wonderful brothers and sisters. Amen.

You two live in my heart. Till the day I get my answer, I'll cherish and thank God for this gift. :))

*Joan* was here at 9:14:00 PM

Saturday, March 03, 2007

from me to you

The weekends are finally here again. Time really passes so fast. It is the end of another week in just a blink of an eye. But still..
I love weekends!! XD

Barry Manilow - "Can't Smile Without You"
You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
you see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
if you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

you came along just like a song
and brighten my day
who'd've believed that you were part of a dream
now it all seems light years away

and now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
you see I feel sad when your sad
I feel glad when you're glad
if you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile

now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
well I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me

and you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
you see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
if you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

Yea yea.. One of my friend says I'm a very emo person. Muahahaha.
And wtheck.. Even my msn nick "you're the missing piece", he says it's too emo!! Blah~ Funny person. ;/
I love Barry Manilow songs. XD He rocks my socks.
I love Celine Dion, Whitney Houston, Bee Gees, ABBA and especially Carpenters. Not forgetting many others like Cliff Richard and etc etc too... HAHAHA1000. :D
[I don't just love oldies for your 411.] I like pop songs too and certain Korean ones(movie soundtracks). XD

Anyhoo.. It's going to be a great weekend. :))

*Joan* was here at 12:11:00 AM

Thursday, March 01, 2007

"tranquil beauty of the first snow of winter"

You wouldn't be able to see.
Just how can I make you see? And yet I don't want to.
All hopes and wishful dreams crumpled and torn.
Everything's going to be just fine.

I didn't go to work today. I woke up with a headache this morning. Blah~
Stayed home the whole day and I was soooo BORED!

And anyway.. Oh goodness gracious lovely LORD, this season of American Idol has so many so many good singers. Like OMG! The ladies.. AAHH!
I haven't heard those gentlemen sing yet though. Hahaha.
Gosh I love the ladies. :))
How I wish I could sing like them. Bah~

Frothaganda. ;P

*Joan* was here at 9:58:00 PM

"sway"

Don't stray
Don't ever go away
I should be much too smart for this
You know it gets the better Of me
Sometimes When you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you
Pull me out in time
Don't let me drown
Let me down I say it's all because of you
And here I Go
Losing my Control
I'm practising your name
So I can say it To your face
It doesn't seem right
To look you in the eye
And let all the things
You mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth
Indeed it's time
Tell you why I say it's Infinitely true
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know All about you
And there's no cure
And no way to be sure
Why everything's turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired
I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now It all turns sour
Come sweeten Every afternoon
Say you'll stay
Don't come and go Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know All about you
Say you'll Stay
Don't come and go Like you do
Sway my way
Yeah I need to know All about you
Its all because of you
Its all because of you
Now it all turns sour
Come sweeten Every afternoon
It's time
Tell you why I say it's
Infinitely true
Say you'll stay

Posting results are coming out soon. I heard it'll be out on the 6th of March. Blah.
Worried. Very worried. I hope and pray that I'll get into my first choice 'RP'.
I used to hate studying, but ever since I started working at my dad's office, I realised that I'd rather study than work.
Working is boring. Blah~ Seriously. In the office, once you finish doing all your work, you got nothing else to do and you'll end up stoning. For studying, it's stressful, irritating and tough, but at least it's not boring.

Anyway.. I got to work tomorrow. :))

*Joan* was here at 12:52:00 AM

Roses`

A Cup Of Wine`

Sweet Champagne`

REMINISE`

SPECIAL THANKS`