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Monday, August 06, 2007

I don't know what I'm becoming. Seriously!

Moreover so much things had happened in the past week.

The convo that Tam, Deb and me had with that no-common-sense woman was totally horrid! It boiled my blood to the extreme and I nearly flipped the whole dining table upside down right in front of her. Irritating.
She'd nearly brought disaster to my family if hadn't I not found out about her asking my mom to sign as guarantor for her stupid S$40,000 bank loan without telling my mom the actual amount she borrowed.
She a bloody 20 years old, INDONESIAN SCHOLAR, who studied in SA can tell me straight in the face that she doesn't know what a guarantor is.
She don't even know how a guarantor and bank works. WTFH! And she doesn't even know what a "psychic" is. WTH!
All the bank loan and basic courtesy while staying in somebody else's house as a TENANT... IRRITATING!
~I really can't wait for her to move out!~ Seriously! Before my house goes down the drain.

YES! I am a christian and I should forgive and accept her. BUT bringing disaster to my family and house is not what I can tolerate. Yes I should continue to let her stay and give her a F**King chance to stay on.
BUT I have lost TRUST in her, I can't do it! argh...
Praying to be patient and not be angry at her, yes I do. When I pray I am fine, but when I see it, it starts all over again. Anger and Rage!
AAAAHHHH~ It's driving me crazy...

Yeah... Ever since that convo, there are a few changes.
Even so, there is still one thing I can't stand about, it is when I talk to her and she gives me the "are you sure what you say is TRUE?" look.
To that point, I can't be bothered to talk to her anymore. Like totally~

I shall end all that randomness and anger now.

Anyway I went to visit Mark at the Traders Hotel with the company of Tam, Sab, Nat Kor Kor, Victoria, Kai Er and Condrey. Grace was supposed to come but didn't in the end. Well we stayed over except Nat, Kai Er and Victoria. We went to orchard towers at 3am and saw tonnes of pros and homos. I got totally traumatised and soon we got out of there; and walked back to the hotel. We went home in the early Thursday morning after which sleeping for about only 2 hours. Yeah... It was fun.
I didn't go to school on that Thursday because I caught a bad flu and sore throat. Went to the doc for consultation was given a 2 days MC.

Weekend was pretty ok, except that session yesterday was rather disappointing. But Keenan's talk on the theology was marvellous. I thank Keenan for that enriching talk.
I didn't attend Terence's BBQ party last night, as I was too tired. Moreover I foresee that it was going to end late considering that I got school today.
So yeah... A thousand apologies to Terence. :)

Oh ya! The notes that Keenan gave to us yesterday, there was this page that striked Tam and me. It slapped me in the face at least. I will post about what it says soon.

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God I have understood what you have been trying to tell me, and I will obey your words. I love you.
Jo :))

*Joan* was here at 10:25:00 AM